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(Damn, it looks so good on my phone but on a pc screen it looks as if it came from 2005 :( ) (Damn, it looks so good on my phone but on a pc screen it looks as if it came from 2005 :( )
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Jun. 16th, 2021 08:33 amI was in the process of helping my uncle book a vist to a doctor and phoned him to ask when would he be avaiable and my aunt told me how my granny despised me instead. I cannot stand it, I just cannot, I want to help people but am met with anger and agression instead. I try to be nice, in spite of my autistic inclinations, but barely anyone irl is nice to me, and I don't even have people to talk about it so I have to vent here. I don't even think my granny thought that, she was one of the greatest people I knew. But if she did, it... hurts. And she is long dead, so I cannot confirm either way.
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Jun. 1st, 2021 10:01 amLiving with others is really frustrating, because I cannot really make choices for myself. It was a difficult battle to be allowed to paint the walls in my room a greenish-bluish paint - it's not even a colour I particularly like, but I would never be allowed to paint it my favourite colors, but I positively hate the piss yellow color the rest of the house is painted in. Blue curtains were another battle. So was beige furniture instead of white set (I wanted dark brown but it was rejected on the spot). I cannot buy what I want to cook with, because I have to cook for everyone - even though the food "everyone" eats is inedible for me. I loved how on Saturday my parents left and I could cook a vegetable curry and read manga. At least I have a room of my own, that's pretty new for me. I also wish mother stopped throwing my stuff away when I'm not looking.
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May. 29th, 2021 06:05 pm A then 12 year old student in 2017 protested against her school celebrating the 100th anniversary of the October Revolution and now got an order from the president for it. On the ceremony everybody talked about protecting freedom of expression while celebrating crushing others' freedom of expression. It's very minor but frustrating. I am more and more unsure whether my interpretation of events is legitimate so concrit is appreciated.
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May. 25th, 2021 11:46 pmThe worst thing in the world is when you take your usual sleeping pills, but they don't work because you drank cola before. So you take a stronger pill and sleep for about two hours. Then you wake up and realize you won't fall back asleep without another pill.
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Apr. 21st, 2021 01:02 pmI hate it when everything with sex in it is labelled porn. I mean, porn is fine, but the stories I've seen dismissed as porn online often have some of the deepest, most complex plots I've encountered period. And even fetishy series like Captive Prince usually don't have that much sex in it. Caste Haven recently went having a whole volume without sex scenes. But I am a filthy pervert for reading these stories, unlike "normal" men who don't like plot in their porn.
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Apr. 18th, 2021 03:32 pm All humans are shit. You cannot say "this group of people are all good and good only, only that group of people is capable of evil". YOU are capable of evil, I am capable of evil, and we need to be aware of this to prevent ourselves from doing evil!!!!!
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Apr. 14th, 2021 10:19 amThere many popular articles on the links between atheism and far right, and while it certainly is a thing that exist, there's way, way more corelation between being a christian fanatic and being far right, which is not talked about because the society sees christian fanaticism as normal. I have seen many instances of human rights being under attack in the name of god, but never under the name of no god, not since the Khmer Rouge fell at least. Even communist regimes of Europe quickly allied themselves with local clergy after commrade Stalin bit the dust.
